my own my mind my idea & myself

The death of Chester Bennington makes me concerned about depression. Before his death, I was reading a lot regarding psychology disorder such as depression and anxiety because I want to know what happened to me these past semester. And I find out that I have a similar simpton of depression. I was so unmotivated. I have no will to live. I sometimes cry myself to sleep. I was having sleeping and eating deprive. I seek solitude. And I did thought about suicidal ideation. But of course I will never do that. It is just because when you are alone with your mind, those thoughts sometimes come around. May God save me from give up my life. This experience is one of the worse things I've ever been in. Now I am surviving. I really want to help others that's going through what I was going through. I understand the feeling of no one understands you; no one is there for you; you want to be alone but at the same time you want someone to help you. You're always anxious about lots of th...

Assalamualaikum, guys. It's been a long time I haven't update this blog. Sebenarnya dah terlupa dah.. lol. But, writing is my passion. So, baru-baru ni teringat pasal blog ku ini. Perghh.. dah bertahun dah tak update. Patut lah rasa macam kehilangan je beberapa tahun ni. Jadinya, hari ni ku merajinkan untuk menaip di sini. Last aku intai blog ni tahun 2014. Sekarang dah 2017. Wow. Cepatnya masa berlalu. Sekarang dah umur 21 tahun dah. Pre adult la omputih kata kan. Tapi perangai still macam budak 5 tahun. Lol. Orait. My life sekarang, so far so good. Still belajar. And surprisingly dalam bidang Undang-undang. Aku pun tak percaya dan masih sesuaikan diri dengan course ni. Pray for me guys. I really appreciate it if you pray for me. Bagi aku course ni tough sebab bukan minat aku. Tapi, nothing is impossible kan. Dalam kepala banyak perancangan. Bila takdirnya berbeza dengan perancangan, maka kena letak dalam kepala 'Dan Allah lah sebaik-baik zat yang meran cang...